Meh.

Hi, again.

So, really no movement anywhere. Dude who I was supposed to go out with last week never rescheduled, but we're still keeping in touch. However, it's starting to lose its luster. He asked about Thursday, but no concrete plans have been set, and given that tomorrow is Thursday, I don't foresee anything happening. Meh. 

Last night I grabbed drinks (I had water) with "Tom." It was interesting. I had not my best of days earlier that day so I was in a really down mood; more depressed/sad than being angry or w/e. Anyways, he still wanted to get together to "talk" and so we did. He apologized for dropping off the face of the earth and said that he got scared. He said that his thoughts got ahead of him rather than enjoying the time we were spending together at that moment. I appreciated that he wanted to meet up with me and have this conversation face to face. He asked if we could still hang out cause he did enjoy the time we spent together; I was and still am unsure. I'm just not in a place in my life anymore where I really want to see anyone nor just hang out with someone. I appreciate that he's trying to be nice and friendly, but frankly I don't really want another guy friend nor hanging out with one that I've already sort of dated; I feel like there will be some awkward tension and I rather not see him attempt to hit on other girls nor talk about other girls. However, the night was awkward but still relaxing and did lighten my mood. I'm not sure what's going to happen with "Tom," but for now, at least I got an answer.